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Tuesday, June 30, 2009Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Sleep a 3am plus ....... and woke up at 5am ..... going crazy again .... every time when i have a good time ...... she will spoil it ...... i really feel bad to leave my friends ..... wanted to go out with them .... but in the end .... i have to back out ..... and this is the second time i ditch them ...... if they hate me or leave me ..... i will not hate them ...... i really want to leave this house so badly ...... i dun wish to quarrel with her everyday ...... i really dun wan ....... and no one know what really happen between me and her ...... even me myself also dunno ..... what have i done wrong? if she hate me that much ..... why not kill me? i will forgive her for killing me ....... calling me CHEAP ..... is that the way Mother call their daughter ...... i am so tired of talking to her ..... i just wan peace .... THAT WHAT I BLOODY ASK FOR ONLY! staying at home i dun get peace ...... she will nag and shout for no fucking reason ..... i really hope i can go back to my own home .... which is Balam Road ...... the home which i had spend 13 years ...... HATE THIS COLD HOME! STUPID AND USELESS TAMPINES HOME .... dun feel warm at all .... all i feel is NOTHING! i am afraid of going out ..... once i step out of this house ..... i dun think i will come back ....... how long am i going to live in this COLD HOUSE? feel like going oversea and study ..... i really hate her ..... really hate ..... i know people will say that she bring me to this world ...... she 10 months pregnant ..... BLEAH BLEAH~~~~ and i will only reply ..... SHE BRING ME TO THIS WORLD TO TORTURE ME! FUCKING HELL ....... SHE WILL NOT SCOLD MY BROTHER ..... SHE ONLY SCOLD ME ...... SHE KNOW THAT I WILL NOT SAY BACK HER .... SHE KNOW I WILL NOT RUN AWAY FROM HOME BECAUSE OF MY DAD ...... I REALLY WILL GO MAD ..... FUCKING MAD ..... SOON I WILL REALLY TALK TO WALL ...... IF I GOT DEPRESSION IS ALSO HER BLOODY FAULT ...... SHE IS THE ONE THAT MAKE ME HATE HER ...... SHE REALLY BLOODY TORTURE ME .... SHE GAVE BIRTH TO ME BECAUSE SHE GOT NO CHOICE ...... MY DAD LOVE ME ...... SHE DUN ...... I DID LOTS OF SELF REFLECTION ..... I REALLY DUNNO WHAT I HAVE DONE WRONG ....... I REALLY DUNNO .... i wish i can sleep until die ...... or someone hate me kill me ...... got enough of this ..... PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME! i just need a hand to help me .... please dun leave me

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Sometime i really wonder ..... did my mum bring me to this world suffer? my dad is the world most kindness man ...... he love me more den anything .... and i never lie to him before ..... for my mum is so different case ...... she can scold me for no reason ....... i never talk to her more then 30 minutes before ..... when i am not lying to her ...... she will say i lie ...... WTF! i really dunno what fucking wrong with her ...... and i will NEVER EVER close with her ..... i really wish to move out of this FUCKING HOUSE ...... dun wish to be with her ..... i know some people will say that your mum just care for you ...... that why she will scold you ..... the problem is i dun feel care from her ..... i think i going mad again ..... her mood swing is unpredictable ......

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Friday, June 26, 2009Friday, June 26, 2009

After raining there will be alway rainbow ..... so please look on the bright side of life =D look out for the rainbow after a heavy rain ...... Love all of my friends

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Thursday, June 25, 2009Thursday, June 25, 2009

Yesterday work was a hell for me ....... standing there like HUA PING ...... weekdays really got no customer ..... yesterday meet Kpher and Ferris for Sub Way .... before i start work ...... and when i was working .... both of them was playing lan and going bugis to eat ...... after work went to Cafe Cartel for snacks ...... sad to say the cakes are all sold .... today nearly late for work ..... keep going Paragon to take stock ....... holiday left 1 more week ...... haven do POA and BEV ..... SO SAD ~~~ holiday end so fast ..... no mood for school ....... SCHOOL SUCK!

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Tuesday, June 23, 2009Tuesday, June 23, 2009

PHOTO!

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Monday, June 22, 2009Monday, June 22, 2009

Went out with Kpher and Ferris today ...... HAPPY! reach home around 10.30pm ..... i know is early but at least i get to go out with them ...... went to Hong Kong Cafe for lunch ..... after that walk around Orchard ...... went to Grand Cathay and had BEN & JERRY ..... head to park lane because Kpher and Ferris want to play Lan ..... they were playing so HIGH and i sleep until so HIGH also ...... went i woke up .... they still playing ....... but i see the game like quite fun ...... just that i dun like to play Lan Game ..... had Subway for dinner ...... tmr Kpher is working and Wednesday i will be working -.- SIAN~~~ Wednesday Thursday and Friday i will be working ...... mean cannot go out with Ferris and Kpher ...... when i hang out with Ferris and Kpher i feel very happy ..... really happy ..... i hope the happiness will never die .....

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Sunday, June 21, 2009Sunday, June 21, 2009

Photo time!

All photo is taken by ME!

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Thanks to my brother i am out with Ferris today ....... told mum i was out to do my BEV project ..... had lunch at CS food court .... after that went to watch "DRAG ME TO HELL" ...... the movie freak me out! the sound is so POWER MAN! after that went to do BEV project ..... went to Toy r Us ..... dad fetch me to find Baby Reuben ........ went to AMK for dinner and find Kpher too ..... brought shoes, short and ear ring ...... ha ha aiming for IP zone jacket now ...... ha ha i want to buy so many things lor .... anyway got dickies bag for sweetheart ...... LOVE IT MAN ~~

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Saturday, June 20, 2009Saturday, June 20, 2009

I'll be your love

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

There's a time

You feel like you're lost

Feel the night will never end

Through the daybreak

It's hard to hold on

But there is tomorrow

Brings you to your senses

As the sun will make it's way

You'll make it there

To the place where reality and dreams

And love will be together

I'll keep the light from fading

If the clouds blind your way

And the wind sways your faith

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

Let me see you smile

Don't you cry

Over the past

Some days might be gray

And dreary

Not easy to leave

To leave it behind

'Til the rain stops in silence

I'll be there to hold your heart

I'll be with you

'Til you find the reason for love

We take it for granted

We'll keep the time from fading

''cause the world is here to stay

Your hope is deeper than pain

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

If you would believe

Believe in the world

A vision of love

And the strength inside your heart

You'll find a way

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes

I'll bring you tomorrow

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone

*For Ferris Aw

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Saturday, June 20, 2009

At home the whole day ...... never leave my room ....... only went to toilet and went to drink water ...... spend my whole day on bed ..... curtain close lights off ....... quite dark ...... but still can see the sun light shiny thru my room curtain ....... got force to get out of the room during dinner time ...... feeling so fuck up ....... the whole day i keep find things to do ..... really find things to do .... but i end up sleeping on bed ...... staring at ceiling ...... MIX UP FUCK UP ....... REAL OR DREAM!

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Thursday, June 18, 2009Thursday, June 18, 2009

I LOVE YOU

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Can anyone tell me what did i done wrong that cause my mother keep scolding me ....... scold me for nothing and i mean it really NOTHING ..... dun let me out ..... going home late is not allow ...... what hell did i done wrong? i really dunno ........ this few days i keep cry ...... because of me ..... friends around me also get affected by me ...... they cannot hang out late because of me ..... i need to go back home early ...... i scare i will lost my friends ..... really scare ...... locking me up is not the way to make me listen to her ....... it only make me hate her ....... I SWEAR I REALLY HATE HER ....... Sorry my friends ...... i cannot hang out anymore ...... soon i will go crazy and talk to wall ..... i had no want to talk to FACE TO FACE ...... i cannot talk to my friends ...... CANNOT GO OUT AT ALL ...... ha ha guess i need to talk to the wall ...... thinking of running away from home .... but i cannot ...... my dad told me this "If you dun care about your mother is fine ..... but think about me ... how will i feel?" after hearing what he say ..... i cry ~~~

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Monday, June 15, 2009Monday, June 15, 2009

Overdue photo ...... BUT THE GUYS IN THE PHOTO ARE STILL HOT!!!!

HOT GUYS FERRIS & KPHER

FERRIS

KPHER

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Monday, June 15, 2009

Yesterday went out with Ferris ...... went back to Taka to take my staff card ...... holiday had to go back and work .... SIAN ~~~~~ dun feel like working but got no choice ...... Jack Jack need help ...... went to visit Lyn at OC ..... her sales was bad ...... brought a polo shirt from her ...... after that shop around plaza sing ..... brought a key chain ..... DAM NICE and CHIO ....... after that went to meet up my parent at my aunt house ..... sorry Ferris cannot have dinner with you ...... went to collect my passport .... NIGHTMARE so many people ..... i am like NUMBER 40 in the queue lor ...... wait until nearly die ..... when is my turn ..... OH GOSH! nearly faint ........ photo so UGLY ....... after that head to bugis and back to tampines ...... had fish soup for lunch ..... now blogging at grandma house ....... going sleep soon ...... tired and bored ...... dunno what time i will get back home ...... hope ASAP!

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Sunday, June 14, 2009Sunday, June 14, 2009

Yesterday Class Outing was fun and tired too ...... many things happen and i think i lost someone that is close with me ...... feeling scare ...... anyway tmr going to collect my passport .... visit grandma ....... feeling tired and my shoulder is killing me ...... tuesday still need to go sentosa for some stupid event ....... and BEV project ....... POA homework .... OMG ~~~~ many things to do man .....

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