Life now days is so HIGH!! everyday go out CHIONG ...... wake up at 5.45am and go running with Dave .... good lifestyle right? ha ha but we still smoking ..... ha ha and today Zack come Dave house and borrow kitchen .... ha ha he cooking for his Ah Ma ..... today is his Ah Ma birthday ..... so he come Dave house and cook .... ha ha I give lots of comment lor ..... ha ha i think i love being outside den home lor ..... yesterday night i cry while drinking at boat quay ... haiz ~~~ Does he know i am crying? Does he know i miss him? Does he know i love him? Boy i hope you are fine ..... i really hope you will be happy .... hope you can find a girl that love you more den i do ....

Zack told Dave this

Zack: I know why Stephie cannot quit smoking....
Dave: Why?
Zack: A smoker cannot quit but can stop ......
Dave: BULL SHIT
Zack: Dave can you quit smoking? Cannot right? Den you expect Stephie to quit ....
Dave: She have to quit ..... i dun care how she going to .... but she HAVE TO
Zack: DUN WANT TALK TO YOU ALREADY!!!

Hm mm ..... i some what agree what Zack told Dave ..... a smoker cannot quit but can stop ..... i can stop smoking but some time i need to smoke because i too stress .... some people will say "STUPID LA STRESS WHAT STRESS" but they just dun understand ..... i agree smoke can kill some stress, but not all la ...... all people had different way of killing stress ...... i only good way or bad way ..... some people stress they go running .... some people stress will go shopping .... for me? if i stress i will smoke shopping and SPEND $$ ........ this few day i never go home ..... staying at Pauline house or Dave house ...... only go home take shirt ..... home is like hotel ...... i realise something ..... i really change le ..... really change alot ..... PS: I spend $350 for a small bag =X and I CANNOT UPLOAD PHOTO!!!

Now i am at Dave house .... ha ha yesterday all of us is drunk accept for Zack ..... BECAUSE He NEVER DRINK AT ALL ..... yesterday party at Dave house ..... ha ha sing song and play poke card .... den my brother jamming at Dave house basement ...... wa lao they all bring guitar and the big big speaker ...... ha ha they jam like no one business ..... MY HP NO BATTERY AGAIN .... FUCK!!!! many people confess to their love one on Christmas ... but as for me? Christmas mean nothing to me .... drink smoke play sing song ...... AND JAMMING!!! ha ha my brother sing a song called "Last Song" i hear already cry lor ..... Dave lappy cannot upload photo want .... so lousy ... will up load photo when i go home .... dunno when will i go home lor ..... haiz hate this year ..... hope next year will be fine .......

Dave wake me up at 6am to accompany him for MORNING RUN ..... YES 6am MORNING RUN ...... i got no choice to wake up and run with him ...... see Dave i am so good to you ..... Dave and i run and walk for 1 hour .... after that we walk to tampines mac to eat HOTCAKES ...... last night happen lots of things that cost me to lost trust ..... i got caught by my aunt smoking at marine bay ...... i am sorry very very sorry ....... my phone was off the whole night until this morning den i on my phone ...... thing happen so fast .... people change so fast ..... and STEPHIE CHANGE MORE FAST .... save me from the devil ...... ha ha i think is i am the want who walk toward the devil .....

Now at kallang using Dave lappy to blog ...... today my lunch dinner is all mac ..... now supper also mac ..... give me a break ..... going boat quay later .... now waiting for James ....... he sms me at 12am .... telling me he now leaving house ..... and now still haven reach .... he stay at tampines la ..... need to take 1 hour to come want is it? Dave now trying to change me back ..... ha ha i dun think he can change me back .... only the guy i love got the power to change me back ..... ha ha Dave say he going to find HIM to change me back ..... LAME -.-

Woke up at 12pm ..... thanks to Desmond Edwin and Beverly sms ...... so early sms me ....... went to buy my brother jean and uncle shirt ..... cost me $148 lor ..... after that went shopping and meet Desmond ..... he work at tampines MRT ..... ha ha now is 12.20am .... may be going to Malaysia ..... NOW!!! can you see how mad am i? i want to kill myself with bad habit ..... kill myself slowly ...... people around are helping me killing myself ...... ha ha i miss talking to one of my good friend .... but now he become not close to me already .... or should i say ..... only i think he is close with me .... he dun think i am close to him at all ..... world is moving time is changing .... and people change as well ..... i dun blame people who change ..... but i blame myself for changing .....

Yesterday slept at 3am ...... play psp until 3am ..... woke up at 2pm today ..... when i wake up i look at my phone ..... 15 sms .... all Shun Jie .... he bomb me with so many sms la .... lucky i switch my phone to silent ..... my throat giving me problem again ..... i cough and what i saw is blood ..... wth~~ blood ..... and every time i wake up my head is fucking pain ..... and i realise something .... all guy love girls that is smart pretty ..... this two i dun have ..... guy dun love girls that smoke go club and drink .... all this i have ...... ha ha so this mean no guy will love me .... i guess i need to love myself le .... live in darkness is better den living in real world

Woke up at 10.45am to meet Beverly ..... she came my house to pass me BABY POLAR BEAR~~~~ i super super LOVE IT ..... thanks Beverly .... after that went to meet Eunice for lunch ..... watch bolt today .... the hamster so cute ..... after that find Connie at her work place .... had pepper lunch for dinner ....... tmr may be going out .... or may be not ....