Rain rain rain ..... when is raining i will feel sad and emo .... today went out with my cousin, we went to People Park OG and i brought my SANTA BARBARA bag ..... ha ha now i am aiming the PURPLE WALLET which cost $78 .... ha ha STEPHIE LOVE PURPLE !!!!! just now in the car i was looking thru my phone photo and i saw kill photo ..... i see thru all the photo that i took with him and my brain flash back those happy and sad moment with him ..... i really miss him .... i wan to see him again i wan hug him and tell him i miss him ...... i cry and hug James and i tell him " James, no more kill warm hug anymore ...... i really wan to see kill and i miss him badly and i wan to tell him i going attachment and i feel sad" ..... James did not say anything but only keep pat my head ......

Raining raining and raining .... today went Beverly house to study for BEG, den Connie study until sleep .... ha ha BEG test was not bad, i think can pass ... today i do OIT test until sleep .... ha ha den wake up do again, tmr going back sec school to see IAN KWOK ..... now talking with DARLING EUGENE !!!! HE IS HIGH NOW MAN!!!!! i think i will miss him badly if i leave ITE .... i wonder if i leave ite and mean zero contact with my class mate and sotong ... haiz where to find another sotong which is cute and alway out of no where give me a BIG SMILE in msn ... haiz sad sad sad .... sotong sotong you must guai guai de .... dun run out of tank ar .... ha ha i wonder will my friends miss me if i leave .....

I think the rain is because of me that why never stop ..... the rain is just like my tear, cannot stop at all, no matter how i try it cannot stop .... i am going insane, i just cannot stop crying and i dunno why .... how i wish the guy i like can sms me and ask me how i am .... how i wish my best brother will come find me tmr .... but all this is only how i wish .... today went to get new phone .... the last time Stephie will be very happy and keep jumping around in the M1 shop, today the Stephie sit on the chair and just keep staring at screen wait for her number .... today i wear the hood shirt that Wenny and me brought at east point .... the moment i wear i feel like hide myself behind the hood ..... after getting my phone i went back home, i head was just killing me ..... i cry as i fall asleep ...... sorry Terence .... i really got think what you have tell me ... but i think my brain is too full to store anything le .... sorry

I am really going insane .... i simply got no more energy for anything, first was the guy i like make me sad, and now is my best brother .... some thing bad happen to him, today when i saw the group that Eugene make for him .... i cry, i sit in front of my com and cry .... i already lost the guy i like and now i lost my best brother, we both are different .... but when i have problem he will know, i never say he will know i have problem ..... he can read my mind, i really dunno what to do ...... i was planning to have chalet on my birthday but i think i can drop the idea, i lost everything, i dun mind lost the guy i like .... but i dun wish to lost my best brother ..... i ask god why he must torture me like this .... he can break my hand or break my leg .... but not my heart ..... my heart is now in million million pieces and i dunno how to fix it back ..... I LOVE YOU HYKAL ...... my best brother hope after 3 years we still can be brother and sister ....

I AM HAPPY TODAY !!!!! LOVE DESMOND VINCENT BEVERLY AND CONNIE !!!!! VS ROCK ROCK ROCK !!!!! i want to thank all the people that help me buy sweet .... i really love you all to the max of max .... and Eugene quek change name le ..... his name now is CB ...... ha ha anyway today each of us got $52 ....... WHOOP Desmond going to use the $$ to buy bag for the gf .... i am going to spent on myself ....... ha ha anyway today after bazaar Connie Beverly and me walk to east point ...... on the way to east point saw QR and SJ ........ i see QR face he like going to cry anytime sia ..... den Connie and me was dam shock ..... den QR and me walk behind and i talk to him ..... hope he can let it go slowly ...... went Beverly house and slack .... ha ha we play the stack stack blocks ( i dunno wat the name ) den we play twister .... ha ha QR and SJ pose look very very wrong lor ..... ha ha i laugh until wan cry sia ..... JOKER MAN !!!! anyway after playing so many weird games ..... we sat down at the living room and see tv .... after that went back home .... now i am going to sleep le ..... very very tired .... tmr still need to finish up my SBM presentation ....... last but no least ...... EDWIN IS LOVED !!!!!! ha ha

Today beverly sms wake me up .... asking me whether going out ma .... went to eat swensen and after that shop around TM and CS ..... after that walk back to my house down stair and slack .... see Beverly play psp and suddenly think of HIM ..... i tell myself i must be happy .... AS HAPPY AS I CAN ....... i am going to keep you in the past and never tell anyone about you ... secretly forget you ..... because of you i learn alot of things ...... i am not so naive now i had grown up le ..... while i am blogging, sotong online .... den i suddenly think of last time when he is emo .... i blog for him .... now he seem not emo le .... now i like the most emo ppl .... Dave told me this " love more and you will hate more"